WW Day 1

Well, this may not be as hard as I thought it would be.  I mean, it will take some adjusting but I can handle this, I think.  Dinner was good.  I looked up some recipes online that gave the points plus total, so we ended up with shrimp, rice and brussel sprouts, making a meal of 9pp for me, and 12pp for hubby (due to serving sizes).  It was really good and filling. 
Dessert was a cake I have always wanted to make, but never did because I knew, in my mind, I would rationalize it as, "But it is so low calorie, I can have more!!"  It is the pineapple angel food cake.  You just mix a box of angel food cake mix and a can of crushed pineapple together and topped with coolwhip lite, it is not even 4pp per serving.  Nom nom.

I like teh maths

Well, I decided I should try the new Weight Watchers.  My sister and grandmother have both done it, and I never really liked it, but the newer Points Plus program I like a little more.  On the Points Plus program, most fruits and veggies count as 0 points, which will make it easy for me to snack.
I like math so the counting and math will be entertaining for me.

Best of all, I am not doing it alone.  My partner in crime, Mandy, is going to do it with me, (as long as I help her figure her points and such for a while).  Since Mandy is moving in with me in January, we will have a good solid shot of doing this together.

Another thing I like about the new WW PP is that I can "earn" extra points by exercising.  This means all of my time on the treadmill will be worth points, and I can have a more worthwhile snack.

The addition of the weekly "bonus points" that everyone gets means I can have a ladies night every so often and not feel bad about it!

Oh yes, the treadmill.  I am back in the groove slowly.  I was cleared to work as long as I don't have pain, but it took me 2 workouts to rill my LEFT ankle.  Luckily I was holding on and did not do much damage over a little swelling and soreness, so I now go everywhere in two full braces.  It is really hard to coordinate pinup wardrobe with two braces, but I will make it work. 

So here is to trying again.

Oh, also, you may notice that the runner at the top has changed.  I have decided to set myself a very short term goal, and that is to get back to  my pre-pregnancy weight of 185.  This will be goal number 1.
My ticker will reflect that until I reach 185.  Then I will set an additional goal. 

Bait-n-Switch

It looks like the dentists were just telling me what I wanted to hear in order to get me in there. 

I got a message yesterday saying that they could not give me a sedative before hand.  This is what it said:

"What you are asking for takes a special license that few doctors have. I know it's hard to imagine, but Dr. XXX and his team will treat you with respect and care to your individual needs so much that the IV sedation will be enough. Walking in may be tough, but after that, you will be sedated, treated, and relieved......"

It looks like they forgot I am afraid of NEEDLES.
READ THE FUCKING CHART! 
SERIOUSLY.  
I am sure the IV will be enough to knock my ass out, it is a matter of getting the IV in my body.

RTFC
RTFC
RTFC 

Super Phobic Self

So I found a great dentist out here that actually made me feel at ease with them, not completely terrified, and okay with getting work done.
It does not erase the fact that all of that work has to be done under IV sedation, starting with the removal of my wisdom teeth likely this week.
It look as though they can give me an oral sedative before trying to put the IV in, which, as long as I don't know a needle is involved, is good for me. 
So that is where I stand on that.

I also realized yesterday that I have less than 2 weeks until I get this damn boot off my foot and I can start walking again.  Getting excited to me a new me.

Damned if you do...

If it isn't one thing, it is another. 

Hubby finally relented a few months back and got my treadmill, despite the fact that my foot had been aching me for a few weeks.
After a couple of days, I decided I should go ahead and see a podiatrist and the news was not good.  I had done some damage to the tendons with all my incline training and was stuck in a boot for 4 weeks.  I figured this would be a minor setback, and 3.5 weeks in, took the boot off for a few hours to walk my first 5k.  We finished in just over an hour, but it was for a good cause and I am not upset at that time at all, since it can only get better.  It was for PCOS awareness.

So 4 weeks came and went, and I was eager to get out of that stinky (literally) boot and into my sneakers to do some more training.  I was three steps, THREE STEPS from the door of my doctors office when down I went. 
Roll, strain, POP!!  And me screaming, "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!" the whole way down. 
I don't know if I have ever mentioned how weak my ankles are, or how often I sprain them, but I had made it almost a year!! 
I crawled into the building and a nice man helped me into a chair.  I let them know I had rolled my ankle in the parking lot, and I was in x-ray and on ice in less than 10 minutes. 

As usual it was not broken but I had done some damage.  My doctor walked in, looked at me and stated, "Well, you're just damned if you do and damned if you don't, aren't you?"
Indeed.  They put me in a soft cast for a few days, until the swelling went down, with instructions to stay off of it at least a week and then transition into the boot as soon as I was comfortable with it.

2 weeks later, I was back in the office for my follow up. Not only did my ankle still look evil, but my left foot was hurting once again from the extra use.  Not only did I get condemned to the boot for 4 more weeks, but I also got an annoying stabilizer brace for my left foot, also for the next 4 weeks.

Top that off with a horrible broken tooth this week, and a dentist appointment for my super phobic self tomorrow morning, and you can assume that I am not a happy girl.

Pout.

As a note- I will post a link below for anyone who wonders JUST HOW needle phobic I am.  This woman explains it so much better than I ever could. 
http://elizabethmcclung.blogspot.com/2007/01/trypanophobia-needle-phobia-fencing-and.html

Your wagon got stuck in the mud while crossing the river

and 3 of your ox drowned.

I love Oregon Trail, as a side note.

So I am back.  Again.  I managed to not completely undo what good I had done.  I gained a few pounds back.  I am listing my weight today as 206.2.  So really, I have only put about 2 pounds on from where I was- leaving me 8 pounds down or so.  I can live with that.
I still cut out full sugar sodas, which I think helped me a ton to not gain the weight back.

This morning I am having a nice breakfast of fruit and a homemade passion tea lemonade.

Yeah- you  might notice a lack of NutriSystem food.  Don't get me wrong, NutriSystem is AMAZING.  The food was pretty tasty, the price is pretty good, and I was seeing results, but I hit a bump in the road and I just cannot bear the extra $300 a month right now.  I have my plan on a delay until July, when I can make a final decision.

Things have been pretty tough the past few weeks.  I have some motivation though, and I am feeling pretty good about things.  I have some good friends coming to visit me from Canada in one weeks time, so it is time for me to find some energy to get the house nice and tidy.

I am hoping to set a new schedule for myself, to help me better get things done through the day.  As it stands, I would like my mornings to be:

Wake up (duh)
unload dishwasher from night before
make breakfast
enjoy breakfast at a leisurely pace while blogging and Sparking*
wake kids

*I made my return to SparkPeople today, since I cannot really do NutriSystem right now.  Feel free to find me- theSkinnySister

Husband will be home tonight.  He has been gone for about 4 days now.  Making a return to the gym tonight.  I did make it once this last week, which is good for me, considering my husband is never around.  I have been shaking my booty to a Dancing with the Stars DVD though.  That has been fun.

Until tomorrow people....

The Reality of it ALL

Well, I have not completely blown the diet thing.  I haven't gained any weight, but I have been losing VERY slowly.  I have not had a chance to get to the gym with the hubby's work schedule, and while I have not been on the diet strictly, I have not blown it up either.  I wish I could say I was doing better but I am not. 
I did snap back on track this week though, because I know I will be blowing it all to hell next week-- next week is my BIRTHDAY!!! 

I have never had a trip away from my children before- not since there were only two of them, so I am super excited to be spending 2 days in Galveston with my best friend at a ritzy resort.  I plan to be drinking my calories!

Last night I decided to go to the gym, as it had been a while, and boy was I pissed when I got there.  They are no longer an Anytime Fitness, and have a whole new keycard system, so I couldn't even get in!  I was SO MAD!  They didn't tell us any of this beforehand.  All there was was a sign by the door saying, "We are no longer Anytime Fitness. Please come in to get a new keycard.  Unfortunately, they are only open while hubby is at work, so I have to wait until next week to figure it all out.  Until then, I go on walks and such. 


Short update I know, but back to it!!