Hmmm- this isn't so bad after all

Last week was our first weigh in for Weight Watchers.  I lost 3 lbs and Mandy lost 5!!  I am so pleased with us.  We have started to adapt everyone's meals to a healthier way, and no one is complaining.  Mandy has stepped up and has been cooking a ton of amazing foods that we all love.  We are trying new recipes and loving it. 
We have our third meeting tomorrow.  I am actually looking forward to it.  My scale has already started going down and it excites me. 

Ahhhh that damn scale.  I really have to stop getting on it so much.  We all weigh at least one time a day.  We have to stop letting those damn numbers control our day to day attitude.  We get obsessive over it. 
I understand the importance of weighing in once a week at WW but come on.  Still for some reason, I just cannot stop.  Every morning I step on, hopefully for even a tenth of a pound change and every night I get on to see how much higher it is-- how much fluid I am holding and if I over did it.  I know, logically, it makes no sense in any way, but I still do it.  AND as much as I sit here, writing this, saying I should stop and saying I don't need to do it ever day, I know tomorrow, before our WW meeting, I will still step on that scale and see what I am in for. 

Somehow I am still doing pretty well on food.  I have my days but once again I managed to keep it between the lines, and I am STOKED!  For the first time we feel like this can happen!

I am still in school and still busting my tail.  I have a rare three day weekend because we start going on Saturdays now.  I will now be in school Tuesday through Saturday which kind of sucks, but it will be really nice to have a week day available for doctors appointments and other things that are not open on the weekend.

Hopefully I will update tomorrows weight before next weekend. 

67.8

67.8

67.8

I have 67.8 lbs to lose before I hit what I consider to be my goal weight, which in actuality, is 13 lbs more than a BMI chart says I should be. 

It was time for something different.  Something with more structure.  Something with community that might actually help.  Something proven. 

Enter Weight Watchers. 
I know, I know.  Yet another magic method to try and fail at.  Maybe this time it will be different?  Mandy and I both signed up yesterday because they were running a special.  I am not one to believe in such things as divine intervention, but we happened to get an escrow return check the same day that we were not expecting, so the money literally fell into our laps.  Sale, extra money, all at the right moment.  We took a flying leap off of a VERY high cliff.  A cliff that will take us 3 months to land from.  That is how long our initial term is for. 

We decided to go to the Sunday morning meetings.  It is very early for us, but it is the only one I know that I will always be available to attend.  I am so glad we picked that time.  Everyone was a riot.  I like to say we got the heathens that do not attend church.  I feel like there will be a higher sense of accountability for me.

So this is where we stand.  I am going to school 5 days a week still, and it is getting harder.  I am stretching myself thin and my business is starting to suffer for it.  This is not the best time to start a new way of eating, but I can no longer afford to stay at this weight.  I had a great doctors appointment about 6 weeks ago.  My cholesterol is awesome.  The bad is low and the good is high.  Everything is within normal range.  Oh-- with the exception of my blood pressure and my risk of a cardiac event.  It was through the roof. 
At 31 years old I am at major risk for having a heart attack or stroke. 

I have 6 children.  I cannot afford to take that much time off from life.  They need me.  Everyone needs me.  I need me to be here still.  Dying would be a drag.

I cannot afford to fail.

Help me....


XOXO
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