Sabotage

Honestly, for a day or two, my husband was so supportive. Suggesting my fav mexican place for dinner, not so much. And last nights dinner, Applebees. And the night before... seriously, I am losing it.

Tonight I did okay. I had a half of a half order of fajita nachos, which was just chicken, beans, a little cheese and some chips.

Last night I DID give in to Applebees, but only because they have both weight watchers and under 550 calorie meals. I had a little sirloin steak with a spinach stuffed mushroom with a few roasted potato chunks. Pretty tasty.

I regretted it at about 6 am when I started having a gallbladder attack. Miserable as usual. I took some meds and went to sleep. When I woke up, thankfully it was done.

Pioneer Trail Style

I didn't just fall off the wagon this time. The wheels broke while crossing the river, the horses drowned, and I barely managed to paddle to the other side.

I gorged myself through the holidays. That was fun. Not so much now, but while it lasted. I started going to the diner again while hubby is home. Bad decision. Mmmm french toast.

I started back on soda. I was doing so good without it, but I needed the caffeine one day, and just fell for it. Bad decision.

I started snacking on things more. Bad decision.

I quit going to the gym again, mostly because hubby is never here for me to go, but even when he is, I go maybe 2 times a month. Bad decision.

As you can see, I am not really making excuses. I am owning up to the fact that every one of these is a bad decision.

Last week, I was at my moms for a few days. Thursday, after I got there, we had a delightful meal of tamales and baked potatoes covered in taco meat and tons of cheese (bad decision). That night, I had one of my stomach upsets that left me wondering if I had consumed artificial sweetener, which is what usually causes it.
Friday, I went to lunch with a friend. We had Cheddars, and I had a great New Orleans pasta covered in a spicy alfredo sauce (bad decision). That night, it started again, and it was CLEARLY my gallbladder. I was in so much pain, I nearly went to the hospital. Just as that decision was being made, it finally quit, and I was able to sleep.

After the two days I spent in pain, I decided it might be a good idea to chop a few trees and rebuild that wagon. I cannot live in pain, and I am in no place to have surgery to remove my gallbladder. So step one is cutting out fatty extras. No fried meats, less butter, less processed fat filled foods. Maybe I will realize that losing it is more than just vanity. (good decision)

I am after hubby to buy me a NordicTrack incline trainer. Most people, it would go by the wayside, but I am a treadmill junkie, and I think that I need it, since he is never around long enough for me to go to the gym. Here is to hoping he will agree. (good decision)

Also, I really have to write in this more, even if it is just to say, "Hey, today SUCKED!!" (good decision)